Bill Walton
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tearful Bill Walton says he's ready to make amends with Portland By Jason
Quick, The Oregonian
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16, 2009, 6: 07PM [image: walton.boyd.JPG]Thomas Boyd, The OregonianIn an
emotional address to the media, Bill Walton, recently recovered from major
back surgery, said it was time to apologize to Trail Blazers fans.Bringing a
heart deep with regret, Bill Walton returned to Portland on Friday for the
first time since he can remember.
Ostensibly, his return was for a banquet tour – this weekend he is receiving
the Governor's Gold award, making a speech for Special Olympics and
attending a fundraiser for the Trail Blazers.
But when his plane descended through the Willamette Valley on Friday, Walton
said he discovered tears streaming down his cheeks, and he knew this trip
was so much more than awards and encouraging speeches.
It was his time to heal old wounds. And a signal that his life was once
again changing.
Walton -- one of the NBA's biggest personalities, first as a player and
later as a broadcaster -- has been in seclusion for much of the past 2 1/2
years because of a severe back injury. He's able to travel again because of
successful surgery.
But the wounds he discussed Friday are older, going back to his ugly
departure from the Blazers in 1979, two years after he led the team to its
only NBA championship.
Walton left after demanding to be traded, and while accusing the team of
pressuring him to play through what had become repeated foot and ankle
injuries. He also sued the team physician, Dr. Robert Cook, and one of his
closest friends, trainer Ron Culp, over the quality of treatment and care by
the Blazers medical staff.
"I'm here to try and make amends for the mistakes and errors of the past,"
Walton, 56, said during a 40-minute press conference. "I regret that I
wasn't a better person. A better player. I regret that I got hurt. I regret
the circumstances in which I left the Portland Trail Blazers family. I just
wish I could do a lot of things over, but I can't.
"So I'm here to apologize, to try and make amends, and to try and start over
and make it better."
Throughout the day he was emotional, crying as the plane touched down, and
then weeping in his meeting with Blazers staffers. And there were times in
his address to the media when he stopped talking to compose himself. Much of
that emotion is because his ravaged body has once again been rebuilt.
Debilitated for the past two and a half years with severe back pain that
stripped him both of his high-profile position as a national television
broadcaster, and his ability to live a normal life, Walton is back on his
feet after a spinal fusion in February.
He said he spent much of the past two years lying on the floor of his home
in San Diego, reduced to a "pitiful ball of flesh" that was unable to walk,
talk, sit, stand, or sleep.
"I went from thinking I was going to die, to wanting to die, to being afraid
I was going to live, to now seeing rainbows, Calliopes, clowns, and dreams
of a better tomorrow," Walton said, his once famous shaggy, red hair grayed
and combed back. "Not only am I proud to be here today, I am unbelievably
lucky to be here today."
Blazers ambassador Bill Schonely, who was the team’s broadcaster when Walton
played and has remained friends with him, was at the staff meeting.
“He was very, very emotional,” Schonely said. “He apologized for the things
he did in the past. You know, he’s 56 now, and we all grow up. But I know he
is sincere. And he was close to death, and that tends to make you think
about things. Now that he’s making a comeback, I think he thought there’s
nothing he could do but apologize.”
The back surgery was his 36th orthopedic operation of his life. He says he
has two fused ankles, 11 bolts throughout his body and knees, hands and
wrists that don't work – symbolic and telling of a 14-year NBA career in
which he had only one offseason when he didn't have at least one surgery.
Throughout his career, he missed 762 games because of injury, the equivalent
of nine seasons.
But when he was healthy enough to play for the Blazers, there was never
anybody better or more interesting.
He was politically active, environmentally aware and outspoken on both
accounts. He was a vegetarian and became a devout follower of the "Grateful
Dead" whom he met in 1974 at Portland's Paramount Theater. He later said it
was "an experience that changed my life."
On the court, he was one of the most skilled and cerebral big men of all
time, an incredible passer, deft shot-blocker and efficient scorer who
blended power and grace.
But just before his rookie season, he had knee surgery. Then during his
rookie season he missed 47 of the 82 games because of foot ailments. In his
second season, he broke his ankle and missed 31 games. Even in the
championship season he hurt his ankle, missing 17 games.
But the last straw was the 1977-1978 season, the year after the
championship. The Blazers were rolling with a league-best 50-10 record when
a slew of players went down with injuries, including Walton. He returned for
the playoffs, but broke his foot in the second game of the first series
against Seattle. The Blazers lost, and Walton decided he wanted out of
Portland.
"I wasn't alone," Walton wrote in his autobiography, "Nothing But Net." "I
think the Portland fans and media also wanted me out."
Today, Walton only remembers the good things. He remembers coach Jack Ramsay
"made me the best player I ever was." He remembers Maurice Lucas as "the
greatest Trail Blazer of them all." And, of course, he remembers the fans,
whom he calls "Blazermaniacs."
But those memories are tainted with regret. He said the fans' support pushed
him to heights he said he couldn't reach by himself, but he seldom returned
the favor. He was too injured and also too wary of opening himself up to the
public.
"The love they gave me was something I could not return," Walton said. "And
that's something that will forever be a stain, a stigma, on my soul. I can't
wash it off."
He hopes for a closer connection to the Blazers in the coming years. He
closely follows the current team, saying "they have the talent" to win it
all, and he says he is a big fan of center Greg Oden, who he says "is
capable of being a historic-level figure."
He also aims to get back into broadcasting.
But until he leaves on Sunday evening, he is set on reconnecting to the
past. He said he would spend much of Friday afternoon driving to his old
haunts – Nature's Food and Tool, Wallace Park, Multnomah Athletic Club for a
quick soak in the Jacuzzi. And he would visit the old Paramount Theater,
where he first met the "Grateful Dead".
"I'm just so happy that I can dream about better tomorrows," Walton said.
"You talk about a long strange trip..."
Jason Quick <jasonquick@news.oregonian.com>
